Hello my friends, it’s an ice filled night here in Kentucky and I would like to address an issue tonight. Over the past few months, I’ve learned a lot about about my relationship with God. The closer I draw to him, my life becomes more blessed. My life is no where near perfection and I don’t want it to be. I feel like I am exactly where God planted me and I will bloom. The past few months have been eye opening, painful, discouraging, scary, exciting, happy, and emotional all in one big ole bag of awesome. Corey and I have been attending our church on a regular basis. Though my health continues to deteriorate, I feel stronger than ever. Things that once mattered now seem so pointless. My new dance company has started to take form and I’m loving every minute of it. My returning kiddos are doing amazing and we’ve added a few new ones into the mix as well. This year is all about a transition of life and I can’t lie to you, it’s HARD. Going from being the breadwinner of the family to housewife is nothing short of drastic. I’m thankful that doctor appointments and school keep me occupied. Life is much different these days, but I have chosen to be bloom where God has planted me.
I come to you tonight, to have a voice for those that won’t speak up. In my personal health struggle, I seemingly appear “normal” on the outside as do others with autoimmune disease. What others SEE is a normal, happy go lucky gal who occasionally mentions she’s having a bad day or sometimes I have to cancel plans because I’m having a flare or worse…a trip to the emergency room. Unfortunately, they only see about 10% of my day…IF it’s a good one. The rest of the time is spent trying to stretch out your joints because you are stiff as a board, keeping track of medications, trying to hold food down, struggling with normal every day tasks, dealing with constant fatigue, chronic pain, and the emotional toll that it takes over you. The depression and anxiety of living with something that is a silent killer and has no cure can be completely overwhelming. New symptoms and ailments see to come out of no where and it can take multiple doctors and/or tests to tell you why.
People start to question if you really are sick because they SEE a normal person. These people start to slowly fade away until they just don’t call anymore because they can’t handle your emotional health roller coaster. When this starts to happen, you honestly start to question yourself. Am I going crazy? Am I even sick? When people tell you that you don’t “look” sick it can be the hardest thing to hear. Know this my friends, sickness does not know one specific definition. Little comments like that can be heartbreaking to someone suffering with an invisible illness. As someone fighting autoimmune disease, we aren’t looking for sympathy.
We just want you to fight WITH us not against US.
These days I’m addicted to loving life and viewing things from a whole new perspective. I only want to be around positive and inspiring people and I try to follow bloggers with the same mindset. I’m sharing a few of my favorite bloggers this morning and hoping you will follow them too!
For The Love of Adventure
Such Small Hands
Fellow Foodie Love
Happy Tuesday Everyone! Sorry I’ve been so busy and haven’t taken time out to chat. Today’s post will hopefully light a fire out there in someone. The best hint to achieve your goals in life is simple. You ready? You might not like it, but you gotta do it yourself. What am I talking about? I’m talking about with any goal, if you want it done you have get out of your seat and make it happen. This year is all about discovering new possibilities and the only way to achieve that is to dig deep, do the research needed, plan it out, and DO IT! Quit feeling sorry for yourself because you didn’t get the promotion, or maybe you didn’t an opportunity that you’d hoped for. Really process WHY you didn’t get it and research what you could have done differently. Maybe your goal is to lose weight this year. ASK yourself if you are really doing everything you can to achieve your goal? Stop thinking in terms of IF and start thinking in terms of WHEN. RESEARCH all of your options to achieve your goals. Realistically PLAN out your goals. STOP thinking negatively. Find like-minded individuals who have common goals set. Having a support team around you is wonderful, but only YOU can make your goals happen. Keep in mind that no one owes you anything. A support team is built to motivate each other, but you have to MOTIVATE yourself and dig deep. So what’s holding you back? As my husband always tells me, “there’s nothing holding you back but wind and opportunity. Here’s your wind.”
I know you can make great things happen WHEN you want to.
Happy Tuesday Everyone!
Whoa, it’s a cold morning here in Kentucky. Thankful I’m off today and can stay in and cuddled up on my couch. We are now seven days into 2015 and I find myself really embracing the blogging community. I’m very thankful for the life I have and that I not only share it with my wonderful husband, but also with God. I encourage you to read this blog post today from Thoughts About God. It really hits the nail on the head with someone who thought they were in control of their own life. Embrace the fact that you don’t have all the answers and trust God.
Have a Blessed Morning,
I love Free People and their blog. Everything about it is inspiring! Today I challenge yourself to let yourself move on to the next chapter in your life and quit reliving your current one. I know it’s hard. I know it’s stressful, but the more you let go, the easier it becomes. Give more, want less, and remember to breathe!
Be sure to check this blog post out from Free People today!